A bad nights sleep.
Yes we all have them and the heavy heart feeling is only to be expected.
After getting a phone call from my GU's ( he has just turned 90 on the 19th) nursing home yesterday at around 6pm.
He is not wanting to eat, is feeling sick and agreed and wanted to stay in his bed for most of the day.
Thankfully he isn't in pain and has hardly ever been known to be in pain all the years I have know him. Even after his hernia op last year he said he had no pain just discomfort.
Uncle normally manages to be dressed and helped the 5 feet to then sit in his chair during the day. He doesn't go out of his room now as he is attached to a oxygen machine 24/7.
It may not sound like much from what the nurse said but alarm bells were then, and still are, ringing loud and clear in my ears.
For a start, and as those of you who have been in simular situtions, they don't phone the next of kin unless they need to.
So today I plan to go in and see my great uncle but along with my OH for support and company.
My plans for today a bit mucked up but needs must.
I am one to follow my gut instinct and it very rarely lets me down.
Over the years I've seen my dad, then step dad and all four grandparents in their last few hours at the end of their life.
I know one needs to take everything step by step and use every opportunity wisely and when it presents itself.
I'm not one to want to have loads of regrets so of things I could and should have done but for lack of a bit more effort on my part didn't.
Off now to get up and then out. My eye check up is later this morning so should fit in with my plan all being well and God willing.
I need to also get some food in as we have guests coming on Sunday.
A restless night and woke with a heavy heart. An off load post
Yes we all have them and the heavy heart feeling is only to be expected.
After getting a phone call from my GU's ( he has just turned 90 on the 19th) nursing home yesterday at around 6pm.
He is not wanting to eat, is feeling sick and agreed and wanted to stay in his bed for most of the day.
Thankfully he isn't in pain and has hardly ever been known to be in pain all the years I have know him. Even after his hernia op last year he said he had no pain just discomfort.
Uncle normally manages to be dressed and helped the 5 feet to then sit in his chair during the day. He doesn't go out of his room now as he is attached to a oxygen machine 24/7.
It may not sound like much from what the nurse said but alarm bells were then, and still are, ringing loud and clear in my ears.
For a start, and as those of you who have been in simular situtions, they don't phone the next of kin unless they need to.
So today I plan to go in and see my great uncle but along with my OH for support and company.
My plans for today a bit mucked up but needs must.
I am one to follow my gut instinct and it very rarely lets me down.
Over the years I've seen my dad, then step dad and all four grandparents in their last few hours at the end of their life.
I know one needs to take everything step by step and use every opportunity wisely and when it presents itself.
I'm not one to want to have loads of regrets so of things I could and should have done but for lack of a bit more effort on my part didn't.
Off now to get up and then out. My eye check up is later this morning so should fit in with my plan all being well and God willing.
I need to also get some food in as we have guests coming on Sunday.
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